Friday, July 29, 2011
Monday, July 25, 2011
Almost Crawling
Sunday, July 24, 2011
First Trip to the Zoo
Sunday, July 17, 2011
Lily's Week in Review
Saturday, July 09, 2011
All about the food
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
Oh-oh say can you seeeeee....
Sunday, July 03, 2011
Chicago Rummy
Roly Poly
We have been having lots of floor exercise time lately. I spend time on the floor with Lily on my off days and Jeff is diligent about giving her tummy/floor time on the days I work. We are really working on Lily's trunk control, her ability to roll all directions, reach for objects not within her grasp and not directly in front of her and prolonging the time that she can tolerate not being in mommy or daddy's arms.
Of course our Lily is amazing and makes huge strides every day. On June 16th, we saw plenty of back to tummy rolling over (as seen here)...
...but she couldn't quite make it over her shoulder to accomplish the tummy to back direction. This week while I was at work, Jeff got her over that hump and she is now rolling successfully in all directions. There is no stopping her, really. If we put her on the floor on one side of the room, she can make it to the other side in no time. She is so proud of herself and we are so, so proud of her.
Our little girl is so much fun and her personality emerges more every minute. Of course now we have to be super careful because she is semi-mobile and is loving her new-found ability. I can't wait to see what's next!
Saturday, July 02, 2011
Sleep Schmeep
Lily is at the very least inconsistent with her sleeping. I have read that a LOT of adoptive families have persistent sleep issues and I'm afraid we are becoming one of them. Don't get me wrong, it's not horrible and I'm really not to the point of breaking from sleep deprivation but it is an issue. We have only been home a month so I'm not classifying this problem as chronic quite yet.
Fortunately Jeff is still home with Lily during the day and can give her the naps that she needs while she still needs to lay on us to sleep during the day. He is even weaning her from that a little and she took one or two naps in her pack-n-play this week. Her nap times, however, are different every day (maybe our fault) and the duration of her naps varies from 20 minutes to 2 1/2 hours. For the past 5 nights, I have had the most awful time putting her to sleep at night, though. Literally from 8pm until 10:30pm I have been rocking her, walking her back and forth, patting her back, jiggling her, singing to her just trying to get her to konk out. This is taking a toll on my arms and back but mostly, it makes me feel like a little bit of a failure and deprives her of the ability to fall asleep peacefully. For the past 3 nights (2 of them work nights for me), she has woken up around 11:30pm and been awake for the majority of the night. Therefore I have been awake the majority of the night rocking her, playing with her to try to tire her out and just functioning as a zombie while she gazes at me wide-eyed and full of energy. How can she do it?!? She still functions normally during the day, takes her little naps and has her smiley face. I have to say, I'm struggling while I'm at work. I have downed more coffee and diet coke this week than ever before. I am even contemplating caving and starting on that 5 hour energy stuff just to get me through. It doesn't help that we have been soooo busy at work this week and I haven't even been able to take a lunch break.
Please don't get me wrong. I wouldn't change my little girl for anything in this world. I know we will make it to the other side of this. She just may be 4 years old before we do. Even in the middle of the night, I stare in to those eyes and just melt and I have no choice but to kiss her yummy cheeks and sing her "I love you" songs. I just wish we could get a solid 4-6 hours sleep and sing when we wake up.
On top of the sleep issues, I am having working mom's guilt. I don't want to work. I want to play with my baby all day and not miss a second of her life. I have waited so long for her that it just seems wrong that I haven't had more time before going back to work. But it is what it is. We will make the best of this and Lily will be with at least one person who loves her more than life at all times. We are so very fortunate for that. But for now, I will feel like crap at times, be tired more than not but still be the happiest mommy in the world. 
