Sleep

Sleep these days is no longer my respite from a hard day, time to rejuvenate or the source of happy dreams. Instead it has become a struggle. Trying to sleep during the day is tough. I lay in bed with my cold, exhausted body flip-flopping to find the sweet spot in my pillow which just isn't there, the volume of the birds outside driving me to tears as I psyche myself out of much needed rest that is required if I am going to face another night vital and prepared to grow in my job. I've tried sleeping in my bed with the black-out shades, a sleeping mask, moving to the other bedroom for a desperate attempt at a change of scenery...always just to give up and rejoice if I can manage 5 hours of sleep before the next shift starts. I have made it on less than 2. Not well though.

I am a grump about this. I don't like working nights. But I have to pay my dues as a new nurse and just hope and pray that my boss is being truthful when she tells me that the schedules will be re-done on March 28th and I have a good shot at moving back to a day shift position.

If I could just get the sleeping down, I would really be fine. But without adequate rest, we all know what happens. Not just dark circles and a massive caffeine addiction...

Time to get ready for tonight. I did get my 4 1/2 - 5 hours today so we'll hope it will be a good night. Wish me luck.